Love Can Be Blind AND Deaf! posted 5/21/2009 1:09:48 PM | 3 kudos what's this?     report abuse

sybnann

There was a time that I was seeing a man. He was tall, and handsome (to me). He was SO full of life~~~ laughing a LOT of the time about many things, and he was and is the type of person that could find humor in almost anything! He too, had lost his wife. When we were seeing each other, we laughed and cried together.... we dreamed together.....

He was/is also VERY romantic and talented, with one of the most beautiful singing voices I had ever heard! He sang "Seal's" song about the rose!

Well this man ALSO told me early on that he was planning to see others. To me, then, it was fine. I just wanted to feel alive and DID when we were together. Even though I knew he was seeing others, I was blinded and deaf by the fact that he would get phone calls, and it would be other women rather than family... as he had told me.
He would tell me that he loved me, and I felt that he meant it then AND now, BUT was blinded again to the fact that the kind of love he was expressing was NOT the kind I wanted him to feel. So, I kept telling myself... once he feels the love I have for him.... once he believes all that I am saying to him.... once he accepts that no woman could love him more, HE will awaken.... and want ME!!

We all know, that is not how it works! We cannot LOVE someone enough to get them to change their own feelings!! It simply does not work.
Well, he did eventually find someone and was with them a while, but it fell apart, and now he is on the hunt again. We are still friends, although not in regular contact or anything, and he lives no where near me.

I will always have feelings for him,, but they are more in a proper perspective now. I will always wish him the best, and although I like to believe I have "learned" from that experience.......... when I do fall in love again.... it will be hard again if I am not loved in return. I just hope I am NOT as "blind and deaf."

Copy & paste to friend: (Click inside box; Ctrl + C to copy; Ctrl + V to paste)

Blogs by sybnann: Broken Presents, Broken Dreams Thoughts and Intentions A Man Named "Fair!" Second Miracle!! It's a Doosey!!!!!! Day of Miracles Love Can Be Blind AND Deaf! Crying Is Good Reflections of Angelican Bishop Massaging Fingers.... Well I Have Something....