Its early on a saturday morning....and im waiting for the phone to ring......a lady friend of mine is suppose to be calling me and telling me if shes going to be comming up here to see me today.....and im nervious about this call.....we dated years ago.....and i know whats gonna happen if she comes up here today.....its been awhile since weve seen each other....but the last couple of weeks....weve been talking on the phone.....her marriage has just failed and she wants to talk....i have to admit...its been great talking to her again.....but then again...its been awhile.....i knew that when she called and told me she was getting married that it would be a mistake.....even tried to talk her out of it......but she was sure that this was the one....and after years of on again ...off again with me.... she told me she was tired waiting for me to make up my mind about what i wanted....and at the time.....i wasnt sure even what i wanted.....as im not now.....but i do know what we had together when we had it....and it was nice......but back then.....i had two kids to watch over and what i wanted wasnt important......i know i tried to make her apart of my life back then.....but what she wanted....i couldnt give her.....but now...things have changed.....and i know...talking to her.....its still there between us......that part hasnt changed......now i have to decide if two people can just take off where they left off last.....and start again........or if what was....cant never happen again.......and im still not sure what i want here and now......but i do have to admit.....that these few weeks talking to her again has awakened something in me again......and im not sure what to do about it yet.......ive always thought that when what i wanted came to me....that i would be ready for it to happen......and now...im at a total loss as to what to do about it......one should never live in the past......and ive tried to live my life that way......but if the past comes calling once again.....and it was never really resolved back then.....should i stop and try to make it right one more time.......or should i just say that its time has long since pasted....never to happen again......as i sit here and wait for my phone to ring........cookie
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KnittinKitten
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May 30 @ 8:38AM
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Cookie:
If ya want any advice from an old (experienced) lady.....I'd say, don't set up an "Agenda". When you get together (and you will) just take things as they come...don't rush into something...just start by learning to enjoy each other's company again... Time will let you know if there's a po9ssible future...you'll both know.
How did I get so smart? Going through somewhat the same thing myself at this time...Can't rush it...just have to let things happen. Damn, that's difficult, isn't it.
Fondly,
KK 
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marchartist
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May 30 @ 8:55AM
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This is a hard one. I agree with KK. I know it's not good to look back, but it's unresolved and when you get to know each other again, maybe you can feel your way through it and some answers will come to you. You're quite a babe, Cookie, and any woman would be lucky to have you, so if this isn't it...don't worry.
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oceanlover734
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May 30 @ 9:02AM
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Wow cool to hear men go through these same type feelings. Great advice above also. One thing remember no matter what your history was with her she also had/has a history that is very recent with her ex or probably not ex husband yet. She is vulnerable which in my mind is a dangerous combination when you see an old flame. Just my thoughts. Good luck!
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ragtopcookie
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May 30 @ 9:09AM
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My lady friends on here......what would i do without you.....i did make up my mind about something here......if she comes up here to see me today......im gonna get out of house with her before we do something stupid ...like jump back into bed together.....im thinking picnic in the park...by our water falls...she always liked going over there......in fact......im cooking my famious baked beans as we speak.....just got it in the oven....and the house is starting to smell of bacon and brown sugar.......
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dizzydoll
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May 30 @ 9:12AM
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Must be honest, i would take this slow. i have difficulty with her choice to leave you before. my two bits worth.
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Tiramisu4u
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May 30 @ 10:48AM
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My dear friend...KK said it best...start out the day on that picnic...enjoy each other's company. NO expectations.
This is a situation that can't be picked up where it left off...you need to reestablish a friendship first..thru communication.
You will know if there is something to try exploring again later...hugs Cookie and good luck!! 
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lisa46
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May 30 @ 11:01AM
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My friend I hope this is a wonderful day for you to visit with an old friend. Don't expect anything she might be just coming to talk about "what ifs" or "I should have"
Then again she might be interested in starting over? Go slow and enjoy the moment my cookie friend 
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lady4u893
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May 31 @ 12:44PM
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Hope you had a wonderful day on Saturday! 
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classic57
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Jun 13 @ 11:16AM
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bet my baked beans are better than yours   
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