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Old as she was, she still missed her daddy sometimes. -- Gloria Naylor
This supposed spring.. with all the rain, all the up and down weather temperature patterns is coming to an end and with it comes Father's Day... the beginning of summer. I don't know about the rest of the world, but here in my corner of PA, we have had so much rain and temperature ups and downs, my poor veggies are asking me for raincoats, boots and scarves.
I spoke with my dad yesterday. My uncle/godfather passed away Thursday morning. Uncle Joe had been in real bad health for over 8 years. For my Aunt Teri, though she will never admit it, it will be a blessing that she will not have to be a 24-hour nurse. I loved my uncle Joe, but he was hurting for so long, this was, indeed, a blessing to him. Too bad, in times of grief as this, not all family members can let go of their wishes and let the one that is his partner make the decisions. Nuf said on that. May God keep my uncle Joe safe and reunite him with the others of the family that are already residents in the hereafter.
I worry about my parents a lot these days. Shite, I am a old woman, and I can barely imagine what I will be like when I hit their age mark. My dad's last remaining brother (not step-brother) came in a week ago to spend some time with dad before he makes his journey to the others. Uncle Stash is 92 and completely blind in one eye, glaucoma in the other, heart problems, crippling arthritis, and a whole bunch of other things for which he takes 37 different types of medication daily. On the trip here, he turned to kiss my dad goodbye and whispered in his ear.. "pray for my end.. it is hell to outlive your body".
I've seen the last ten years take a toll on my dad. The man that could run circles around most men 1/3 his age, has slowed, become guarded of making or taking risks to his health. I doubt there is one child in this world that, if truth be laid on the table, could say they don't well up inside seeing this decline take place in that man that was once the strongest person alive (in our eyes at least).
My dad.. he has changed so much... not all of it is sad and debilitating.. some, no, most of it has been changes for the good. He has become more patient with little ones. I can tell you first hand, that when I was the age of my dad's great grandchildren, and cried the way they do, or if I ever threw the tantrums they do, he would have gone ballistic. Now, he smiles and coos to them... and if he cannot quiet them after a while, he returns them to their parents and just sits watching. Things he never really wanted to do because they required time that he felt he couldn't spare, he does now without a second thought.. for example.. weeding.
I know we are all working our way toward leaving the life we were given the moment we are born... I should know this fact.. I've lost some really strongly-loved people in my world way too soon... but there are times that I think about every facet of life... perhaps a lot of my thinking as of late has to do with the week I had this past one.. and some of the other things in my life that really didn't inspire me to wanting to have a repeat of same..
I'll admit it .. there are times I frikken throw myself the biggest pity party you have ever seen .. complete with tipping back a few .. loud music and crazy-azzed dancing... does it take away the crappola that others have flung in my face.. hell no... but it does take the anger outta of me, the sadness disappears, and I then go out and cut grass, or weedwhack or garden.. so that I can return to my center.. because it takes some time every now and again to remember that some people have so little good in their own lives that they need to cause others pain and put them down in order to feel better about their own shit and inadequacies.
So without further adieu... HAPPY FATHER'S DAY TO ALL THE AWESOME DADS IN THIS WORLD!!!
and a repost of my blog from last year and the one from the year before about my dad:
Fathers and Daughters 2008
Father's Day 2007
and to any that would like to see some of the latest of the ole homestead...
The Latest Pics
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