****Stephanie and Jennifer's Dad**** posted 6/21/2009 5:34:55 PM | 5 kudos what's this?     report abuse tagged: daughters, dads

butterfly943

Happy Fathers Day to you.....And Thank you for helping me have 2 beautiful, wonderful Daughters...we did good

My ex and I were married on and off for 20 years...I say on and off because we married not once, nor twice but THREE times yup Ive heard all the jokes We married the first time when we both were only 17...well he was older by 22 days and within the first year Stephanie was born . We were so young but kept being parents to this beautiful child of ours.

We decided to have one child so we could give her everything. We bought our first home at age 19. Two years later another child was on his way I lost this
child that was so very hard on me...and more so on him because he couldn't understand the depth of my grief. I couldn't explain it to him, I didn't know how. I became very withdrawn started having my first of many panic attacks. Sometimes a death of a child will bring a couple closer, that wasn't the case with us. It tore us apart. We divorced...Yet he still stood by me...

Although we were not together he wanted me to be a stay at home Mommy so he paid all my bills so I could. Now I wanted different had a need for me to become me. Instead of being happy with all he did for me I resented the fact he was controlling my life...I am deeply sorry for this...I am not saying he was a Saint he wasn't he started cheating on me from day 1..and to be honest I didn't really care.I was not in love with him. I respected him and still do, but did not love him the way a woman loves her man....but....

We got back together again....Creating another beautiful daughter Jennifer. ..then it was over again...for the last time. For so many years I didn't like him I blamed him for allot of crap that we both did. But time heals...hearts mend...we grow up and understand that even if a marriage fails we don't have to HATE...because at one time we LOVED that person....if you don't believe this just look at the children you made together

**So today im wishing him a wonderful Fathers day**

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