I have already had a harder day than I have have had in a long time. A variety of things that become too real to me now and then, overwhelm me and I get depressed and bewildered. 
It seems, metephorically speaking, that those, like myself, that have a big heart, get the "crap kicked out of them" often. That makes it is SO hard to take when you are one that generally loves people and have the best of intentions towards them. 
On top of that, I have been placed in the postition of being needed which is the most part a great thing, but I am not one that can retreat to bed, or cry all day, or "not" eat, or go out and be gone all night. I am needed, almost ALL the time, so there is no emotional "rest" for me. I have a hard time "regrouping" or comforting myself, because I have to keep it all "together" for the sake of others. 
I try to always remember my "intentions" towards others even if they do not always see it and they "read" more in to my words, whether it be through chat, email, IM, or my poetry. Some often assume the worst too of me, and I have to say that I am glad I do not have to answer to them.
They cannot see my heart, even though I strive to see theirs.
They cannot feel or see my pain, because they are in so much pain.
I realize, they cannot know my intentions, until they take the time to know me.
They cannot read my thoughts or I theirs, ever, but like I try to, I sure wish I would get the benefit of the doubt more.
Sometimes what so many may view as a blessing, can indeed seem like a curse. 
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