When I was in my teens I would have sworn I'd been in love. That all-consuming feeling that takes over your every waking thought, the tingling in your body when ever you think about the last time you kissed, that longing to see them again, hear their voice, feel their lips on yours. Yeah, funny that ... it wasn't love it was the hormones kicking in.
In my twenties I thought I was in love when everyone else had long since met their match, were married or living together and asking me constantly if I'd met Mr Right. I thought I'd found him when I finally let a friend be more than a friend and was swept away by the feeling of being loved so much I thought I'd never be loved that way again. A pity I hadn't felt the same, a pity he probably never felt that way either, just the hormones having a second lease of life.
Don't you just hate hormones? If it wasn't for them we'd be able to think straight when a member of the opposite sex walks in the room or pays us the slightest attention. Without hormones I doubt we'd have drunken sex because the alcohol would kick in before we did anything stoopid. The so-called love I've felt in the past is now just that, a bunch of misguided hormones steering me or him in totally the wrong direction.
There are similarities with real love. It's true to say you rarely stop thinking about the object of your affection, the hormones still kick in but you have control over them. Instead of feeling a constant need to procreate or practice, there's a constant warm feeling of security and overwhelming desire to just be with them in whatever capacity that might be, exciting or mundane.
Beyond that, there's the desire to pay homage to them in some way, draw them, paint them, write stories, poems, song, talk about them without boring people. Your world revolves around them but at the same time you can function normally, do everything you need to do to live a normal life, give attention to that which needs attention yet doesn't have any connection with them except that it's you doing it and all you really care about is them.
Beyond that is the comparison to everything else in your life ... Nothing is as important as they are to you, yet you can still give everything in your life the attention it deserves. God help you if you ever had to choose between them and someone else precious in your life, but hopefully that will never happen because in your heart you know there is only one choice.
Beyond that is the unknown, the future together you have planned but really have no idea how it will pan out. The only thing you're totally sure of is you will be able to face that future because you have each other, and the only fear is you might be forced to be apart.
When love takes over all past loves suddenly become a practice run. All past hurts become stepping stones marked as lessons, 1, 2, 3, 4 and so on on the path to true love.
> Listen to Kelly <
Angel has spoken ... thank you for listening. 
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ttomtarr
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Jul 10 @ 8:24PM
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Don't you just hate hormones?
No, but I like roller coaster rides, too.
What you are describing is a totally different level, the joy of the possibility that you have found the partner to careen thtrough the Universe with, to ascend to the very top of the tunnel of time.
You can't be sure, but you can make a good wager, based on the past and present, then go over the top of a ride far greater than the world's highest roller coaster.
Good Luck ! ! !
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butterfly943
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Jul 10 @ 8:47PM
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I really liked reading this 
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dizzydoll
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Jul 11 @ 1:55PM
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beautiful blog dollettes, pure love is always special
Don't you just hate hormones?
 , and the hurdle isnt done just yet.... change of life is quite a drag
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summerbreeze916
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Jul 12 @ 10:32PM
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I guess we're growing up, my friend.    
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