So, in the past, there have been times that I felt I did not actually see myself that clearly. Looking in the mirror was at times very hard. Not because I was a bad person, but because I "saw" myself that way, and not accepting who I really was.
AS to what I saw in the mirror, I saw a person that:
Had built a wall around herself as a form of protection from pain, awareness, anger, and indifference.
I saw someone that was so caught up in my everyday life or in my dreams and fantasies, that I purposely would not slow down for fear of seeing what was behind that wall, and embracing her.
When I did finally realize this.... I forced myself to face my fears and anxieties for my own sake. Although I am still far from perfect, I have learned to accept myself the way I am, and I try to also accept others the same way.
My sister is one of those people that can never admit if she has done something to hurt another. It is never "her" but always someone else's fault... so that either makes her pretty much perfect, or.... one that also will never focus on herself, for fear of "seeing" and " facing" the pain that I did so long ago.
Pain can not be "skipped" but rather has to be "waded" through.
You don't agee? That is fine! Many probably won't.... but it doesn't really matter because if a person lives their lives passing that mirror without taking a long hard look and "feeling" deeply what they have worked so hard to avoid, NOTHING for them will change.
There is NO one that can do it for them and if they don't or won't see it, nothing will happen. I don't know that this helps anyone, although I hope so, it helps ME, once again........... 
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