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  1frantastic

Happy Birthday to ME.....tomorrow!!!!

Well this old woman has made it another year......and still without someone to share it with.... but I look good! In my picture anyway.....Lots of confidence far away....up close and personal...not so much....

When I am in a position of authority...I glow...I am sooooo good...and when just another person in the room...I am actualy withdrawn....if there is no show to put on...

hate being the last one chosen for a team....which happened very often growing up...and even after being grown....

Next yr will be my 50th HS reunion....hard to believe it is actually here so soon.....and I am sooo looking forward to seeing those classmates that were so popular and good-looking in high school...cause I was the ugly duckling!

Another reason 2010 is so important in my schedule of life events, is cause my personnal astrologer told me in 2007 that I would meet the one I have been waiting for then. So at least that is a carrot to keep me going forward.....I have been sooooo depressed...

Usually I am in California, with my sister and her family, my daughter, and my mama.....but this year it is really a downer....My mama died in Jan at age 97...my sister's husband is losing his battle with life and she is depressed yet has to stay up for him....my daughter is her own boss and economy has made it hard for her to be the deaf-interpreter for business functions and school is out till next year.....

My "best friend" renigged and abandoned me on our "quality of life" adventure and left me in debt because of the advance which he probably will never repay. Another friend says he will come and help me, and I will help him with his depression...so we will be good for each other.....I hope so...

Sooo...on my birthday's eve, I have mixed emotions....I would love to have a party with friends wishing me Happy Birthday, blowing out the forest fire of candles on the cake, getting brain-freeze on home-made ice cream, and having a reprieve from this long time depression that I can't seem to shake!

But....this too will pass.....it always does.....regardless of how we try to hang on to memories...they only last in real time for a moment....so you can recall old ones that were happy and replace sad current ones...or even better...go to bed and watch movies in your mind.....that is the best! That is how I cope......for now....

Happy Birthday to ME!
God and I were in pre-school together...We are pals! He will be with me tomorrow! Wonder if He would get brain-freeze from home-made ice cream???? Hummmnnnn

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Comments:
Jacksonboy

Jul 24 @ 3:50PM  
Happy Birthday and good for you.
Redwicket

Jul 24 @ 3:55PM  
HAPPY HAPPY...JOY JOY

So, what's keeping you from having that party? And, hey here's an idea...how about inviting people that you don't Usually spend time with, but know each other well enough to invite.

Also, have you ever heard of the saying "Fake it, till you Make it" ?

Go and rent "What the Bleep Do We (k)now" you can find the way to beat depression if you really watch it...

And...I use to save things for "Nice" until I read something that asked...What the Heck are you saving it for, isn't every day of your life a special occasion? Bring out all of the things that you Love...Buy all the foods you Love...Light candles if you Love them. Treat yourself Wonderfully...and Expect Others to treat you the same way.

I could go on, but maybe this is enough to get the ball rolling...Oh, and try some St John's Wort for depression...the only side effect is getting a sunburn easily After using over a Year.
sybnann

Jul 24 @ 3:56PM  
Well, my friend, I will be the first to wish you an early Happy Birthday!! I am glad you are looking forward to your reunion and I am sure it will be great fun!! I sooooo understand the depression. I have fought it off and on during my life. Although there have been many times that I "won" the battle with it, there have been yet other times that I didn't!

I am sorry that you cannot be with family this year, and for the loss of your dear mom. The day seems more empty when we are alone. Chin up though, I feel that things can only get better for you.

I hope that your current friend does follow through for your sake and his own.

Please, get yourself a little cake and go out to dinner at least!! At least be "around" people on your special day!

Take care and again, Happy Birthday!!
suthrn_belle

Jul 24 @ 3:56PM  
Happy Birthday Fran ....what a beautiful lady.
sybnann

Jul 24 @ 3:57PM  
I guess I wasn't the first after all! LOL!! Oh well!
gunn12fan

Jul 24 @ 4:01PM  
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RightWingRepublican

Jul 24 @ 4:56PM  
Happy Birthday Fran.

May you be Blessed with all the happiness in the future.

Like Grandma always says "It's your own special day."
luneib

Jul 24 @ 5:04PM  
Have a wonderful birthday! I saw this poem and thought it was perfect as my gift to you, well....I didn't write it but....the sentiment is there.

Birthday Blessings

Instead of counting candles,
Or tallying the years,
Contemplate your blessings now,
As your birthday nears.

Consider special people
Who love you, and who care,
And others who’ve enriched your life
Just by being there.

Think about the memories
Passing years can never mar,
Experiences great and small
That have made you who you are.

Another year is a happy gift,
So cut your cake, and say,
"Instead of counting birthdays,
I count blessings every day!"

By Joanna Fuchs
silksox

Jul 24 @ 5:32PM  
Hello Darlin

I just looked at your photos and you have gorgeous skin and a sexy smile! I am HOPING I can look 1/2 as good as you when I celebrate my 67th hoedown..I'm with you on the ugly duckling in High school thingy. Me too...I was short and flat chested...I dunno what happened but God certainly blessed the upper half of my body between then and now. OH.. and my legs grew as long as a jumpin cricket...

Last high school reunion I saw all the "CAKES" (popular kids in school) and darn they went from hot to NOT in 30 years.. The captain of our school football team "John" who i had such a torrid crush on...was busy clacking his dentures, cleaning his ears and had a hairdo like Donald Trump..OMG! From Hunk to Chunk. The geeky kids looked good and had aged a whole lot better through the years than the Cakes..I guess its Karma.

EVERY Dog has his day...
My turn

Happy Birthday Lady

Silks


CHARLIgurl1

Jul 24 @ 5:48PM  
>>Happy Birthday!!<<
coralrose55

Jul 24 @ 6:04PM  
Happy birthday to you, and as i read your blog it really hit home as so much of it sounded like me. It is my birthday too so we leos do have a lot in common. Im not sure i believe in all of it but I know alot of it is truely me . so i wish you a great birthday hold your head up high and celebrate you......huggs
Fayvorite

Jul 24 @ 6:16PM  
You do look mahvelus Dahleeng! Happy Birthday and I agree with the St Johns Wart (an herb) to help fight depression. Bubblebaths help me a lot too.
HUGS4UANDME

Jul 24 @ 6:19PM  
HAPPY BIRTHDAY FRAN ...
EternalFlame

Jul 24 @ 6:40PM  
Fran! We share a birthday!!!!

Tomorrow I will be 21.........



































x2

EternalFlame

Jul 24 @ 6:41PM  
Oh, I almost forgot!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
Tanikogirl

Jul 24 @ 7:14PM  
Wishing you a VERY HAPPY BIRTHAY.Hope you have a lovely day
leprichaun_magic

Jul 24 @ 8:08PM  
..Happy birthday to YOU!!...
mystery2u888

Jul 24 @ 9:36PM  
Happy Birthday gf..........and have a wonderful day
Redwicket

Jul 24 @ 10:41PM  
Hmmm Home Made Ice Cream

Oh, btw "HAPPY, HAPPY, JOY, JOY" translated means...


HAPPY BIRTHDAY...AND MANY MORE

Have one on me...well off to check in with facebook
Fender

Jul 24 @ 10:49PM  
ttomtarr

Jul 24 @ 10:50PM  
The best of all possible birthdays to you, Fran !
summerbreeze916

Jul 24 @ 11:39PM  
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, FRAN!!!

By the time you get back to reading this.......it just may very well BE your birthday! Enjoy it......you deserve it!

I also hope your new friend will be better for you and you for him......

I know that this birthday is exceptionally rough for you....being away from your family, and the first one spent without your mama. I am sorry........
Tiramisu4u

Jul 25 @ 8:30PM  
Hey!!! Its your Birthday, so call some friends that may be feeling a bit down themselves...and share your birthday with them! Invite them over...or go out someplace, and laugh and have fun! If too short a notice..plan it for next weekend.!

Its your Birthday, you can do what ya wanna!!!!

Break the cycle, Franny...only you can decide to make it your special day!!!
Redwicket

Jul 25 @ 10:04PM  
Personally I believe in a birthday Month...

But, seriously I do

Heck, could Even extend it to be a Birthday Year!!!
Yeah, I like that idea...
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