I wrote a blog called "My Heart Hurts". It was about my cat CJ, his struggle with cancer and how I had to put him to sleep.
Well, my heart hurts again as yesterday I had to have his sister, PoohBear, put to sleep. We had been waiting for the results of bloodwork done on her this past Tuesday. But I knew it didn't really matter what the bloodwork told us. She was on her way to be with CJ.
Pooh's eyes just were not right anymore. When I looked into them, I didn't see my Pooh. I saw a strange kitty who really wasn't with me at all. She tried to eat but the last day just threw up everything. She was cold to the touch. She would walk to one spot and spend the entire day there. When I got home on Friday, there was a message to call the vet as the bloodwork results were in. Before I called, I looked for Pooh. I called and called and she never came. I finally found her under the dining room table and she was so still I thought she was dead. She wasn't but was close to it. I set her on the floor and she fell over, could not walk. I wrapped her in a blanket and took off for the vet.
When we got to the vet, I told them Pooh was just shutting down and I thought it was time to end her pain. We were taken into an exam room and the vet (fairly young and onlyabout a year and a half out of vet school), came in to share the bloodwork with me. It showed kidney failure and FIP. (I'd lost 7-8 cats from FIP over the past 9 years). The vet wanted to keep Pooh there and give her fluids and stuff over the week end. I asked if it would do any good. He finally admitted that if it was only the kidneys, it could help but with the FIP also, it wouldn't really do much good. FIP is eventually fatal, there are no cures and no vaccinations. Since Pooh was doing so poorly, I decided it was time to put an end to any suffering she was going through.
I had reminded the vet that he was the one who had put CJ to sleep a year ago and that this was CJ's sister. After he gave her the injection, and checked to be sure her heart had stopped beating, he said, "She's with her brother now." I thought that was an awfully nice thing for him to say. And I agree, PoohBear and CJ are together now and hopefully someday I'll see them again.
Rest in peace, Pooh.
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Berrysplash
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Aug 8 @ 11:09PM
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Rest in peace PoohBear and CJ, Two years ago I had to have Amber our cat put to sleep. It was one of the most terrible days of my life. Amber had a good life and made ours good by his being around. I think he is in a better place and looking down on us.
So is PoohBear and CJ-who knows maybe they are playing with Amber.
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Tiramisu4u
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Aug 8 @ 11:16PM
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Crap! You made me cry...I soo can relate... 
I have some that will meet me on *The Rainbow Bridge* also....
Hugs you....
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Heart2Heart453
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Aug 8 @ 11:24PM
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I'm so sorry for your loss....you brought tears to my eyes. It's amazing how pets can worm their furry way into our heart. I like to think they will join us at a later date but til then they live in our hearts!
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starflower10
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Aug 8 @ 11:27PM
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So sorry, I know how you feel, lost my shadowpoo a year ago. He was blind and lived with me for 13 years until his kidneys shut down. I still miss him so much.
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missliss78
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Aug 8 @ 11:45PM
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Oh sign, it just breaks my heart to read this.
I am so sorry.
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Snappygoddess
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Aug 9 @ 1:26AM
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Bless your tender heart... animals are just like kids aren't they.. they get to your heart and are family.
I am so sorry your Pooh had to be put to sleep... I pray your heart heals quickly. Glad her suffering is over now.
We are facing the same thing soon with our lab, Boomer... we are pretty sure he is in the stages of cancer.. the vet says they can run tests but they are pretty expensive and as he is 13 yrs old it really is pointless because there is not much they can do for him. So we are letting him live out his days because he still does have some spark left in him. He doesn't appear to be suffering right now but we will monitor him closely.
I hope your other babies help ease your hurt somewhat, Sign 
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sweet5red
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Aug 9 @ 5:38AM
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 im sorry sis... bless your heart.. and god help heal it..Sweet N Louisiana
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PrettyGreenEyes578
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Aug 9 @ 7:10AM
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I am so sorry for your loss.
No one who has ever lost a dear four legged family member could not read this without crying.
May the good Lord wrap his loving arms around you and comfort you.
PoohBear is free and will not suffer.
I am sure that she had CJ and many friends waiting for her as she crossed over Rainbow Bridge.
Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.
When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge.
There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together.
There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.
All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor; those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by.
The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.
They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent; His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.
You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.
Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together....
Author unknown
http://www.petloss.com/poems/maingrp/rainbowb.htm
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lazareth
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Aug 9 @ 8:48AM
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SIgn... what can I say to help fill the empty spot you now have in your heart? Oh Lordy, I know the feeling.
You did right by Pooh. and Bless the vet's heart for his last comment to you.
I have been to some vet's who were cold and callous when a day like this came and I have been to some of the most caring, thoughful vets to help ease the pain of our babies.
When I had to help my Mattie May out of her pain, I could look in her eyes and see that she was tired. I'm sure Pooh felt the same way and she look to you, her friend, her protector to help her down that path.
Bless you Dear..... you have a loving soul, and Pooh is at a good place now as much as it hurts I found that at some point you will think of Pooh and have a smile on your face, maybe a few tears as I do when thinking of Mattie..... but that's a good thing.
Love ya
Lazareth
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Loreli
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Aug 9 @ 12:13PM
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Oh, Sign....
I feel so bad for your loss.
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CHARLIgurl1
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Aug 9 @ 1:12PM
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Oh Sign.. its always so so sad when our furry friends leave us.
I lost my dogs last year within months of each other,, both old and it was their 'time'
And while we know its for the best.. it hurts none the less.
The best thing you can do now is adopt a kitty who needs you.. Im sure pooh and CJ would love that... and a new kitty will help your healing as my 'boys' as I call them.. helped me.
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mystery2u888
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Aug 13 @ 5:22AM
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