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beckyiv42000

Another roller coaster weekend so far

Friday night Mac came over and I made tostadas with shredded beef and we bought a bunch of ice cause well my fridge is trying to die so I was going to manually defrost it and put all my stuff in ice chests.. okay did that and went to bed..

Saturday morning Mac got up and I made sausage eggs and biscuits with gravy for brekkie and then he and my son went out to change my motor mount on my 1968 Nova for me well apparently it had BEEN missing a bolt for a while so I had to run get another one..Luckily for me I had a torque strap on the motor kept the dang thing from launching through my hood ... then after they were done I said hey lets check something.. ya see I have had this problem for a while now (thought it was the brakes doing it but it was still there after new brakes ) .. anyways .. it tends to dive to the left when you put the brakes on hard and fast so yeah I have been pussyfooting it around for awhile and its another reason I haven't gone anywhere really far away just could never figure the damn thing out... so anyways ... I said let me check something and raised the car up a bit more so the wheel was all the way off the ground .. shook the tire and yeppers its NOT right .. thinking it could be one thing then Mac saw what it is.. as I was getting down on my knees to get a look (normal enough activity yeah?) my hip seizes up and I about passed out from the pain I musta twisted wrong or something anyways ... so I look oh shit its the idler arm I think and so I go check online and crap they are like 45-60 $ and usually have to be ordered..the pitfall of having an older car ... so I find one in stock .. ugh its about 20 miles away up and over the hill sooooooo Mac takes me to go buy it.. we get there and take a look at the thing .. crap again !!! that is NOT the part I saw and Mac was like crap too wth?? then an older guy who you could tell knew his stuff that worked there says 68 Nova huh?? its a pitman arm we both were like DUH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! thats what I get for assuming I knew and NO they do not have it in stock but they could order it and it will be $135!! I was in tears by now .. so we left and the old guy follows us and suggests a different parts store (that was sweet of him) so we come home and I go online arghhh even the cheapest one is still with shipping almost a hundred dollars this is SOOOOOOOOOO not my week first my sewing machine still is NOT working right which means I cant finish so many projects I need done and well no time or patience right now to work on it then the fridge and yeah the freezer is working but the fridge just WONT get cold and then the mess with my car .. Im about at my wits end my saving grace?? My Mac . he has kept me from totally losing it ... but I fear that even his calmness and loving care is not going to be able to handle this..


I thought by now I would have another job .. yeah well nope .. and money has been so tight lately that I have resorted to counting out change (thank goodness I saved it all ) to get stuff... and with all the doc appts for the kids and school stuff and doc appts for me and football stuff for my son I am stretched beyond my patience limit ... I just hope that this run of arghhh comes to an end soon.. I look forward to another week of pussyfooting around in my car and hacking away at a palm tree stump to earn a bit of extra $$ since I now have to find a way to get my youngest to a bunch of testing and of course scheduling this all around all the other obligations I have ...
I know this might not be the place to vent and cry and bemoan my current situation and I know everyone has troubles of their won to deal with some far more pressing or important than mine... but this is one way to put it out and be able to LET GO for me .. and well a way to kinda explain to my friends why I have been distant and off my stride lately .. for this I apologize and just ask for some patience ...

I do try to see the GOOD things that are happening .. and focus on them... my Daughter is finally getting her house she wanted.. it was her week last week for the argh times...problems with the loan etc but then my sister helped her and they should be moving in around the first of the month I think.. and she said she would gladly let me have her old fridge )which is almost brand new but does not match the other appliances in her new house) if I can hold out that long... just seeing her so happy and being so damned proud of her keeps me smiling.. My youngest kids are doing great in school so far they are loving it.. and the boy is doing good in football (even if the first game is like over an hours drive out ) and I always am grateful for my Mac .. he is my safe harbor .. he is what keeps me sane (no laughing dammit) lately ... and it is he who has brought so much joy to my life ... I truly have never loved a man as much as I love him...

So even when the world seems to throwing all it can at me to bring me down I have my family and my Mac to buoy me and keep me from totally sinking into despair... I am blessed



Now this morning made a brekkie of chorizo and eggs burritos and Mac has gone off to pick up his boys then in a bit we will be heading over to his moms for a visit ... I am blessed here too to be accepted by his family so well .. So all in all I really have no right to complain about the little bumps in the road.. they make life interesting yeah?? at least that is how Im trying to think about it Hope you all have wonderful weeks and try to count the good and ignore the bad ...you will see the good far outweighs the bad if you think about what is REALLY important right??

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