I cannot breathe. My chest aches. Tears stream down my face. I failed you and am so sorry. I tried. I really have. All we need is love..... do do do ... What Bullsh!t You can't eat love. Love does not pay the bills. I never thought it would come to this.
Due to this sh*tty economy I lost one of my jobs last May. I have tried to find a job everywhere. I have had one interview in all this time. I have gone through my savings.
One week before I lost my job my a/c at home was hit by lightning. $1000.00 out of my pocket... CHA-CHING!
The day they fixed my a/c, my car broke down. $800.00 CHA-CHING
This week my fridge caught on fire  New fridge $605.00 CHA-CHING
This past week I was left with no choice but to take 2 of my dogs to a dog rescue. Hopefully they will be able to find them a home together. They are going to keep me updated. Luckily.
Today I had to find a new home for my 2 cats. I have developed severe allergies along with the financial issues. They cried and I cried along with them. Luckily I am welcome to go visit them.
And on Tuesday I am left with no choice but to have my 2 older dogs put down. They are 17 and 10. Both have some serious medical issues. This doesn't make it any easier.
Sometimes I wonder how much one person can take. I think I am at my limit.
* This is not a woe is me blog. This is me and my life.*
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butterfly943
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Sep 13 @ 12:50AM
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 Im sorry for what your going through
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DiamondRain
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Sep 13 @ 2:00AM
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You can't eat love? 
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Detach
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Sep 13 @ 4:00AM
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That's absolutely nothing what drowning feels like. Drowning is panicky at first, but becomes calming after a while when you start pondering whether to accept drowning to quit tiring yourself out. It's a peacefull acceptance. 
Oh, and anything the beatles tell you is a lie. All you need isn't just love. And no, there aren't 8 days in a week. God those guys were morons. 
Anyway, this happened to me in '01. I lost my job and crashed my car. A former boss of mine took me in to live with her while I looked for work. Now I have a great job, stock investments that make for a good financial cushion, and residuals from a past job. 
Unfortunately, my roommate was forced into early retirement due to this recession, so now I get to return the favor and take care of her. I gotta say, I have the best friends anyone can ask for. 
I'm not going to promise you that things will get better for you. After all, maybe next week your stove could take out half your kitchen. But I do wish you the best of luck with pulling yourself out of the muck.
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gunn12fan
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Sep 13 @ 4:51AM
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At least your alive thats most importiant
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dizzydoll
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Sep 13 @ 6:10AM
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replace thoughts of where you are now to where you want to be
after a while you will see, where you want to be is where you are at
and from then on, it just keeps heading up
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1frantastic
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Sep 13 @ 8:30AM
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well....as for me...it just gives me good fodder to blog about....and .... someday will publish and then reap lemonade from all these lemons.......
never had anything other people did...now they are learning what it is like to do without...or how to "make do" with what they do have.....
(I still have the refridgerator.....sealed with decaying food.....in my kitchen cause cant get it out), and my house is still "falling apart"...but I seem to be "pulling myself together"...and someday.....someday....all will be o.k.....
and if not?? then will be too late to worry about it won't it???  
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cowboy2x4
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Sep 13 @ 8:39AM
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giving up would be a sign of weakness...I can see that you are not weak,hang in there sweetie.
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Sherrybaby412
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Sep 13 @ 10:01AM
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Thanks for all your comments.
No DR you cannot eat love. I love my pets but all the love I have for them is not going to feed them when the time comes.
No I am not weak and I know that once I find another job things will work out. Well most of them.
I won't be able to get my pets back. I think that is the hardest thing. I miss my cats so much and it's only been a day. I am worried about them. How will they adjust?
I miss the dogs but I do think they will be alright.
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nosary
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Sep 13 @ 11:23AM
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Right, love doesnt pay the bills. and sometimes it is the cause for finding the missing link to solutions.
From one financial expense to the other, sometimes life seems like a cruel joke, a conspiracy against ones resolution to survive, and god if there watches silently in agreement
Sometimes the constant knot in ones stomach and a lump in ones throat is all one is left with to know what living means.
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Tiramisu4u
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Sep 13 @ 12:12PM
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OK, girl....we all hear you and care...
Now...sit down and make a list of THREE...the three highest priority issues that have to be dealt with. Forget the pet issue...that was a priority that you HAD to do out of love. They are better off where they are now then with you...harsh sounding, but true, yes?
Now..CONCENTRATE on the 3 issues on list...do not look at the BIG picture overall...only those issues, and make calls, talk to friends, find out where you can get help. Grab any job available to get you started back on your feet...one step at a time...
When you have those three issues temp dealt with, add 3 more things to list, and so forth.
This will be hard...but you can and WILL do it... Good luck...I care
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Fayvorite
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Sep 13 @ 3:32PM
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It is when times are like this when I utter to myself, "This too shall pass."
I'm very sorry about the pets, but we do what we must do to survive this.
You probably tried this but don't forget to apply to temp agencies as often they can get you day jobs and sometimes that job could lead to full time. With low income is a good time to apply for aide like from a food bank maybe.
Remember things could always be much worse and you still have reasons to be thankful.
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beckyiv42000
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Sep 13 @ 9:28PM
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Along the lines of Tiras post...while things have been bad the best thing to do is count your blessings.. they may be few and small but they add up ... good luck
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Fender
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Sep 13 @ 9:53PM
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I'm so sorry Sherry...I hope things start to look up...At least you did the responsible thing by making sure they are being taken care of while you can't take care of them.
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southernlass
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Sep 13 @ 11:19PM
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You're having a "Job moment."
There are many who would have simply dumped their pets into the street. You've attempted to find help for them and find them homes. As to the older dogs, I think it's time to ask for help from any friends or family, if that's possible and there are any who will be understanding. If this has already been attempted, then perhaps it's time to seriously brainstorm about what some of the options are.
You could take in a border, perhaps? Lots of people do this and did in the depression era. Rent out a room reasonably asap, all bills paid; just criminal background check the renter before you accept his or her cash.
If this isn't option, try a bake sale. There are surely some things you can do, fleamarket some of your stuff, garage sale, put up an offer to do some typing, telemarketing, something...
You're not alone, though I know you probably feel alone. If all else fails, go to the local church and find the pastor and start talking. When the chips are really down, you need to reach out to your local community, starting with the church; this is what they are there for.
I'm sending positive thoughts and prayers your way and the pets way. 
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