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We must be willing to let go of the life we have planned, so as to accept the life that is waiting for us. -- Joseph Campbell
When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be. --Lao Tzu
The other day I blogged about my life and acceptance.. one of my vows, my secret vows that I have placed high on my list of things in my life I want to work on. Some that read that blog responded with some very thoughtful comments.. quotations from Shakespeare, shared feelings. Though I don't come to this site to blog as often as I used to, it is not due to the fact that anyone even bothers to read my blog or not, but I am most grateful for those that do and take precious time to comment.
That is not, however, the purpose of this blog. I don't want anyone to think I have given up on love. That is not what I meant with my words yesterday. Sometimes, I feel so much, so deeply about things, I try, I make the attempt at least, to try to convey the words I feel. There are times I feel that I have to reach so far down inside of me and yet the words seem to confuse and sound like laments.
My thoughts in that blog were meant as constructive observation on my part of what I have learned over the past 10 years since the dissolution of my marriage of 25 years. I'll not elicit any sympathies for me as a broken winged soul, simply because if I did that it would be a rouse .. there are no regrets in my life. I may not have had that self esteem gene I so longingly seek these days, but when I compare my life to so many others who suffer needless tragedies, I know full well how very blessed I am and a martyr seeking recognition does not even enter in my vocabulary and makes me ill to think of doing such.
What I hoped to convey with my previous blog is that I have learned to, as the above quotes have so eloquently and succinctly managed to gather the feeling, to let go and accept the fact that for now, I am not seeking love. I am, hereby, letting go of that desire to have it in my life actively at this point, for in being able to let go of that, I release the hurt that will not grace my door again when the person I have allowed my love be given to seeks more: more youth, more looks, more brava in bed, more joie de vie about life .. what I am gaining in letting go of this desire is to find the character within me that I can learn to love and accept as being "the best I can offer" to another heart that will be satisifed with what he hears echo from my depths, what he sees dancing in my eyes, what he feels coursing through my veins and heart. By letting go, I am learning to become what I have always been destined to be... the best I can be to me... and then hopefully to another heart.. I will learn to concentrate my adoration and worship on things that mean the most to my old heart.. the beauty of nature, the dream of my horses and the ability to let go.
So, with a heart full of the deepest and more sincere and profound acceptance of letting go and letting myself be all I can be, I thank you for your concern, for your time, and your friendship and know that I am truly, honestly, deeply .. OK with my life and just letting go of the desires which in turn should allow me to be what I have always been meant to be.. the best me for me and that one heart that is yet to travel to me.
I usually close with something for gramps.. and I will do that with a one liner here tonite...
There are often things that make me scratch my head and wonder why people fret so much over such things they cannot control...
The main one being the song.. "Jimmy crack corn and I don't care".. so, if you really don't care...why write a song in tribute to it?
And my closing quote, which speaks volumes to my heart and soul:
A person will worship something, have no doubt about that. We may think our tribute is paid in secret in the dark recesses of our hearts, but it will out. That which dominates our imaginations and our thoughts will determine our lives, and our character. Therefore, it behooves us to be careful what we worship, for what we are worshipping we are becoming. -- Ralph Waldo Emerson
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