So Cigi had lured JM to drive three hours to an apartment complex that had no apartment with the same number as his. He spent some time looking around and contacted the management to find which apartment belonged to Cigi Green. There was a Green who lived in the complex, but it was a man, not the model-looking sweet thing he had come to ravage. He drove the three hours back to Austin furious. Why would anyone have done this to him?
Because you are a liar JM! And now I am a liar as well.
Who are you? A picture from online. There is nothing real -- there is no Cigi. How does it feel?
The vengeance was hollow though. I was not through with him. I took the photos he had sent and emailed them to all the people he had emailed that Bill Gates-AOL chain email. One happened to be his cousin. There still was no satisfaction. There never would be. He had done an ugly thing to me and I had done an ugly thing to him -- but I had also done an ugly thing to me. I had made of myself a liar and a cheat. And in the end I felt cheated.
Strangely, I missed the compassionate friend he had created for me, and I missed the lover he had created for Cigi. What a waste! Here was a man who had twice charmed me -- the second time when I even knew he was a fraud.
The story doesn't quite end there. Some months later, I was online on yahoo and he sent me a message. I verified that he knew who I was. He asked if I had a webcam. Yes, but I did not have the right software to run it on that computer. (Truth.) Would I like to see him on the webcam? OK. (No face -- just genitalia) I did not type anything for a time. What are you doing? I was looking for a picture. Would you like to see it? Yes. I transferred to him one of his nekkid pics. The webcam went off. Where did you get that? Someone sent it in an email. (You, you fool.) I accused the wrong person. You cost me one of my best friends. How could you lie about your father's death? He means nothing to me. He was never there for me a day in his life. How could you lie to me about that? You wanted someone to listen to you. I gave you what you wanted.
I saw his profile on another dating site some time after. He had a very handsome picture of a man that was not him, and he listed his occupation as a male model. DIDN'T I TEACH HIM A LESSON!
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3BearMom
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Aug 31 @ 1:59AM
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Lacy,
It is sad to say but true that when someone without a conscience hurts you there is no revenge because your are dealing with someone who doesn’t have a soul. They are usually shallow inconsiderate narcissistic people who are only doing whatever it takes to get their fix.
They accomplish this by making you dependent on them for whatever it is that you are in need of at the time, in your case it was a shoulder to lean on, someone to find comfort in a kindred soul. But when he got what he wanted it was time for him to move on. These are shallow people remember they are always looking for new people to impress and feed off of.
Just remember that Karma is a strong force in the universe and one day he will get what is coming to him three fold.
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lacyvsq
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Aug 31 @ 2:54AM
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There is no revenge except perhaps the best revenge is living well. I have found that hurt is a selfish unwillingness to forgive. There is freedom in forgiveness, not as in a magnanimous gesture of me saying "You did me wrong, but I have learned to overlook it," but rather as a perspective that no wrong was ever done.
In my story, it is so easy to forgive me for being a liar and a fraud. After all I was in grief and I was exploited. Only when I was in the game, I no longer grieved and I was not exploited. I was creative, and I was distracted, and the reason I had joined the site was for distraction. JM did no wrong. He gave me exactly what I wanted and perhaps even what I needed at the time. Is/was he soulless? No, the facet of the divine in him is just not so familiar as that we most often admire -- that which we like best to see mirrored to us.
Does the prospect of a three-fold karmic comeuppance give me comfort? God forbid! Forgive us our trespasses as we have forgiven those who trespass against us.
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MrGudguy
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Mar 28 @ 1:48AM
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 Seems like a whole lot of energy better spent elsewhere?
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