From my son.....with love posted 5/7/2007 10:18:42 AM | 1 kudo what's this?     report abuse tagged: sons, mothers, love

sassypoo

My only child, my son, has four days left of high school, then he will graduate May 25. The teenage years are so tubulent without any added factors. My son got great big doses of more stress added to his life with his father abandoning us when he was 6 y/o and then later, my mother's cancer and death. She was "his Mom, too," as he put it. They were extremely close. He and I struggled to get by these past twelve years. I remarried a man I thought would bring happiness into our lives but he brought only more heartache and misery. And on top of all that, I was diagnosed with terminal cancer. So many times I have thought I failed my child, I should have done this or that differently, I should have been a better mother. I have beat myself up for not being there for him, for failing him miserably. Then this morning I get this email from him and it completely blew me away. I can't stop crying. This is his email to me:

As I sit here and reflect on the past eighteen years of my life
that I can remember, I see the good times with the family. The vacations
and the gatherings are all very memorable. The memories that shine the most
are the ones of you. There are like bleached stains on a black shirt;
distinct and never fading. Just today I asked you how old you was and the
answer 52, but it only seems like yesterday you was chasing me around the
house for no reason other than to be silly and fun. The times we would go
places over spring break and stop at stucky's were awesome. The things you
do and have done for me have been way above average and never have been
taken for granted. I guess we have been through a lot together and it has
made me strong and has helped me to develop into the person I am today. I
catch a number of people that tell me of how well mannered I am and I know
whom has taught me to be. We have had our disagreements and our arguments
but in the end I realize where I went wrong and do different. I would not
be the person I am today without you Mom. Because of your patience and
ambition I can go throughout life on my own facing difficult tasks and
working through them putting God first. The things you have done for me can
never be repaid; I will forever be in your debt. Mom, because of you I have
made it to the age of eighteen, still alive, and about to graduate. As I
leave to go to college I will not be leaving you for good. I will be
starting my life and figuring it out along the way. I am lucky to have you
as a mother and thank God for you everyday. I love you forever and always
through stormy and calm weather and no matter where you may go. Thank you
momma.

Daniel

My only comment.......thank you and I love you, too, Daniel.

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