Why do I keep doing this? posted 5/21/2007 6:32:28 PM | 0 kudos what's this?     report abuse

TallBlonde1

Yesterday I let someone stand me up for the 4th time. I say let, because after the first time I didn't take him seriously when he asked the 2nd & 3rd times and I made other plans and went through with them without waiting for him. Turned out I was right both times, he never called the day of the date, but I didn't care. It's been a few months since then, he's sent emails and begged and asked for a another chance a couple of times, and I've said no each time. I should have kept that up.

Now to back up a little and give you some history...I met him on myspace over a year ago and he's been asking me out all along. Not pushy, just now and then, but he was always asking me to meet him at whatever club or location he was working at. (He shoots music videos) and well, when I meet someone for the first time I don't want to have to take 2nd place. Maybe it sounds selfish, but I want to think they want to meet me, not make me stand around waiting for them to have a moment for me. He finally asked why I kept saying no and I told him when he had time to spend with me to let me know. It sinks in and he asks me to dinner and a movie, to which I said yes. I was pushing for coffee and a walk in the park but this is what he wanted to do, so okay.

I knew he was going to be filming all day and we were supposed to go out when it was over. Instead, he ended up at a party after the shoot (nice for him, I wouldn't have minded being put off if he'd called me) he called the next day, apologized up and down and said it would never happen again and promised to make it up to me. And so I gave him a 2nd chance, and he has another good excuse, and the third time he didn't even bother to apologize or come up with an excuse. I told him not to ask me again.

A few more months pass and last Friday night I get an email saying he's going to be shooting up the hill from me over the weekend and did I want to meet him afterwards on Sunday. Not taking him seriously but thinking what the heck, I'm free Sunday, I told him if he was really serious to call me Sun morning and tell me when to meet him. Sunday morning he calls tells when he'll be in town, and I still don't believe him. A couple of hours go by and he calls during the shoot, he's here and asks me if I want to come meet him there now or wait til the shoot was done. It would only be about an hour more and since I'm only 2 minutes away, I said call me when you're done. "Cool, will do" he said. In the meantime since now I'm convinced we will actually meet I finally go and get all ready to go, hair done, tennies cleaned, I even ironed my shirt...I played on the pc a bit and waited for that third call, and it never came. For some reason, I really wasn't that surprised that he did it again, but I am mad at myself for believing him again. I just don't get it.

Am I missing something here? Am I only supposed to go meet him while he was working? Don't try to answer that, I really don't care, I didn't want to date him in the first place. I'm just blogging my frustrations out. Thanks for reading.

This kind of stuff reminds me why I don't like dating.

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