I am mad tonight.
I am not even going to go into everything. I will just say that it has been a long road to discovery.
I am not going to cry any more for him. I have found out he is not worth it. I am going to go to work, lose my weight all of it and I am going to take care of my babies and myself the best I can and he can take a flying leap into the darkest hottest part of the devils home. He said It was my fault he left. I let him make me think that I was the worst wife in the world and deserved it. Now I know better. He is a master mental abuser. He is scum of the earth. I am well rid of his kind of love. I will be glad when the divorce takes place so I can go on with my life. I have a four bedroom double wide home with three baths , one and 1/4 acres in the boonies, a nice car , my girls and two dogs. Even though I am overweight right now I can lose it. I am not finished in the man, woman race by a long shot. I am working at a job I don't like because I have to , but I am hoping when the real Mr Right comes along that he will help me to realize my dream of opening a day care and let me go for my CDA.
I am not happy with the way my life is right now, but I am determined to survive. I will be dang if he has the satisfaction of seeing me unhappy anymore. I refuse to be unhappy because of him anymore.
He thinks he is destined for great things and his idea of the perfect life.
I think he is in for a rude awakening when God decides to punish him.
Karma has a way of biting you in the hiney when you are not even thinking about it.
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ladykay488
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Sep 3 @ 7:53AM
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Good Morning Chatty, I have been reading your blogs. I am so glad to read this one. I know how mad and angry you have been. Believe me I can not blame you at all. It is hard to start putting your life back together again after a marriage of some years. It does seem to me that you are begining to put your feet on solid ground and getting the right idea of what you need to do. Only you can change your life. Show him that you can live and be happy without him. Good Luck!
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hereshannon
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Sep 3 @ 8:09AM
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Great post. It sounds like you have it better than many people, children, great home in the boonies, nice car, and dreams for the future. Divorce throws us into an emotional roller coaster ride that makes it hard to stay focused at times. But you are on the right path, you have taken inventory of the positive things in your life, identified the negative, now all you have to do is work your plan. And you are correct, the day will probably come when your ex realizes the grass is not always greener on the other side of the fence. Life seems to have a way of turning the tables on people who hurt others. Best wishes.
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honeybear285
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Sep 3 @ 9:43AM
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Some of our life changing decisions can be difficult...but necessary...you were in a destructive relationship that not only was bad for you but bad for your children...this is the best solution to situation...you have mettle...you will come through this a winner...actually you already a winner...the path ahead may seem hard, but not as hard as the path you were travelling...keep us informed of your travels...and stop once in a while to smell the flowers 
Peace and Love
Honeybear
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cncmikey
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Sep 3 @ 9:49AM
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i am sorry for the mental anguish he put you through. he was supposed to be by your side supporting you in life. it is men like him that ruin it for the rest of the male population out in the world. right now you need to survive for you and your girls. the hell with him. someday mr. right will come knocking on your door and a good life can be yours finally. just be patient and live a good life until it happens. take care and smile.
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Mmmmmmmmm
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Sep 3 @ 11:07AM
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but I am hoping when the real Mr Right comes along that he will help me to realize my dream of opening a day care and let me go for my CDA.
Never give your power away to another human being. The only way to a happy, healthy, balanced relationship is to take charge of your own happiness, your own dreams, your own life, take responsibility for making them happen.
You will find a good supportive, loving man, when you are supportive and loving to yourself. Otherwise, you will find the same type of man over and over again because your energy will be that of a woman who doesn't value herself.
Why do you have to wait to live, to be happy, to create a career you like until a man comes into your life?
Sorry for the tough words, but maybe it's time for some tough love. Stop being a victim. Take charge of your life. Make it all happen. Your dreams are not impossible ones.
I can tell you the secret of success: do something EVERY DAY that takes you closer to your goals. Every step adds up and suddenly you will be there.
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missliss78
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Sep 3 @ 11:21AM
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Now that you have gotten angry, you will certainly be able to be begin moving on.
Hold your head up, work hard & be the best you can be...whatever it is!
And good luck!
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SallyF
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Sep 3 @ 12:11PM
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Good for you! Looking towards a positive future is refreshing, isn't it? And healthy for the self esteem.
As they say,
Let one person make you feel like less and that's how the next person will treat you
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