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chatty

It has been a while since I have blogged.
I am still working for the mfg place in meeker. It was so darn hard at first. Even now it is hard because I have to fight with the plastic coated metal rope i weave all day. I remember when I first started i would cry every day and curse the fates that I had to stick with it. I still hate the 5:20 AM get up time and I hate the drive yet a few minutes after I get there and start working I can't help but think that am glad I work there. I have some sweet and cool people to work with.
I am so surprised that I can do this job. It is not a mental job . The fact is if you think about it and in your mind think over and under, over and under you will mess up. I now do the weaving as if on auto and sure enough if I think about it I mess up.
I would never have guessed that i would be the one that has a physcial job and he would be the one sitting all day. I am losing the weight I have gained
I am hoping this time next year to need a whole new wardrobe in about ten sizes maybe more smaller.
The hardest part of being without a husband is wanting so much to be held but strong arms and finding that I have no one to hold me. I also love to sleep with my head on my guys chest and that empty bed of mine has no heartbeat. Sex would be nice also but I can do without it if I have to. The sharing, caring, and show of affection are the things I crave . hubby came over and he held his tummy. I am very nurturing . I so wanted to put him in bed, get him some medicine feed him soem broth and make him all better by holding him. However, I am such an I D 10, of course he couldn't wait to get away from me.
I have had nice things happen to me so far I need someone who loves me for me and doesn't spend the next fifteen years thinking ,"when this year is up I am going for it." I just want to be happy and for things to be less difficult. I now realize I do need a boy friend but the lover part is way off in the future.

Time for sleep. TTMS

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Blogs by chatty: get out of my mind you thoughts. this is no advertisment. Thank God I'm alive. I could be dead now. Wishes for a better 2008 update and venting II update and venting It's saturday and I am home alone. ekkkkk I'm feeling bumbed , lonely and silly so beware. in the quiet of the night I can't help but think and wonder Sad and Glad pondering something time goes on beds get made time to blog it was bitter sweet saturday. Once a jerk always a jerk revelations Go figure When you thought you were at the end of your rope you remember how to climb. sorry but I need to vent. Another day in my life. blogging is good for a broken heart. Mid life crisis or just a cheating jerk. the saga continues single life sucks a long day sorry for typo errors I can't find my glasses.