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sciurusniger

"There is a great relief in experiencing the worst vicariously."
(Fiona Shaw)


We often don't realize how much something affects us until resolution is reached. In my case, that potentially worrisome little "hot spot" on the oncology follow-up scan created tension that, despite my generally Zen-like attitude, prevented any real sleep and found me a little sore and decidedly on high alert early this morning.

But for reasons to which I will likely not be privy in this lifetime, I am blessed. There are angels watching over me. And often they take matters into their own hands and forcibly move me to the fringes of disaster, allowing me to be more of a bystander than a participant. So it is that I have the good fortune to learn my lessons with a tad less angst than some.

The phone rang promptly with the news this morning. The hospital staff is nothing but efficient and caring and so the call came early to tell us that there does not appear to be anything out of the ordinary with that odd little "hot spot". My body is simply doing what it should be doing to keep me going.

The physical angel in my life, that man I so dearly love, carried the larger portion of the long night's worry for me and his relief was even more palpable than my own.

Thanks, angels. Thanks, Murphy. Thanks to those of you who cared, too.

I'm paying closer attention again.

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