this is no advertisment. posted 1/15/2008 7:14:54 PM | 2 kudos what's this?     report abuse tagged: life

chatty

I am better today, still sore, but I am able to walk , and talk , and breath so it is a good day.
I was sitting here thinking how much my life has changed since he left.
How much I have changed since he left. I am very different. The way I look at life has changed. I am more patient, loving, gentle and I smile more. I shop the outside isles at the food store now and eat better. I am learning how to be good to myself more now. If I had someone to go with I might even try the gym again after all these years.. The fact I lost 53 pounds already makes me happy and I look forward to losing down to my ideal weight. I no longer care if I have material things ( I don't need that $200.00 mixer anymore) that in the past I thought were must haves. Now , I am wanting to have a more comfortable fun life , one where you do not worry every moment of every day if you can make bills or not. I thought I knew how to budget and that I was doing fine, but when My church decided to work the Financial peace plan I decided to join in and now I am thinking cool, there is a better way. Funny how some guy getting rich telling others how to stop being poor could actually make sense and work. I am in no way trying to say try it to anyone. I am just realizing that the thing makes sense to me and helped me to realize where the problem points in my budget are. I believe that I just might be able to get back on track and have the comfort life I want in the near future. Now I just need a better paying job, and for the ( never been good with money in his life always in debt ex) to pay his child support. I can not imagine not wanting to pay for the care of your child if you love them.
He is not giving me money, he is giving them money , everything I spend is for them. He has shown his true colors to everyone, and he in no way looks close to a rose.
Well, I am going to go enjoy my daughters, watch american Idol tonight and then take a long hot bath and sleep like a baby. Might sound broing but hey I have popcorn.
Sigh, the main thing I miss is snuggling before I fall asleep. Oh well, one day I will snuggle again.

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Blogs by chatty: it has been a while Opps I did it again, right this this time I hope keep your fingers crossed Hello again Long time no blog. where is the top of this hill for today I choose to be happy. well, here's my vent for the night. get out of my mind you thoughts. this is no advertisment. Thank God I'm alive. I could be dead now. Wishes for a better 2008 update and venting II update and venting It's saturday and I am home alone. ekkkkk I'm feeling bumbed , lonely and silly so beware. in the quiet of the night I can't help but think and wonder Sad and Glad pondering something time goes on beds get made time to blog it was bitter sweet saturday. Once a jerk always a jerk revelations Go figure