It's amazing how certain subjects just go round and around and around Blogland. Those old ponies who just won't lay down even though they've been flogged within an inch of their lives. A little bird tells me someone is still going on about the fact some of us leave and keep coming back. 
OK, listen up - I can't talk for anyone else who makes an exit vowing they'll never return and then comes back within days but I can explain myself.
In short I'm a Drama Queen.
I find it therapeutic to storm out of the room slamming the door behind me. Writing a final blog and cancelling my account is the on line equivalent of that for me.
It could be said people won't take me seriously if I continue to do this. This could be true but do I really care? Of course I'd love to be taken seriously but it's been my experience here that it doesn't matter how much of yourself you put out there there will always be someone who refuses to take you seriously anyway or worse still misjudges you. I'm sure I've been guilty of the same myself.
The thing is, we all have different facets to our personalities. When these come across on line they can often appear larger than they are in reality. Yes, I admit it I'm a drama queen but I also hate being centre of attention. Some may see this as a contradiction in terms, but being a drama queen for me is mainly due to having a very long fuse. Short fuse is much better, light the touch paper, small explosion, little harm done. Long fuse lulls people into a false sense of security - "she's cool that one, takes it all with a pinch of salt" - Little do they know the dynamite is piling up slowly, and when we blow, boy do we go off BANG!!!
Just one of my foibles, failings, indiosyncracies, call it what you will, I comfort myself with the knowledge that at least I'm aware of it. I also wish I weren't over sensitive. I can see it a mile off in others and am quick to tell them the opinions of those who are willing to sink so low they hurt you that badly aren't even worth listening to, yet my knee-jerk reaction is always to speak my mind and defend myself against these idiots who will never alter their opinion as long as they have a hole in their arse. Such a waste of time and energy and yet I still get sucked in.
So some ass-wipe gets to me. I thought he was an OK sort, made me laugh, he's from this country which is a bonus, there aren't too many on this site and I'm always happy to make new friends here. He seemed a bit immature for someone of his age but we were just chatting he didn't seem interested in me in any other way than just being friendly. I talk to people of all ages here, so I'm thinking why not? He seemed genuinely interested in me as a person and a writer but one night he just switches - calls me a liar and a game player. Typically, I'm trying to defend myself and getting nowhere.
On reflection I should have blocked and moved on but there's this part of me who wants the whole friggin world to like me. How dumb is that? It's never going to happen in a million years and let's face it, if someone has formed a negative opinion of you then there's little you can do to change their minds - and really, what is the point?. After a certain amount of exchange I was beginning to wonder why I was bothering anyway. This guy meant nothing to me, he was a mixture of words and a very old looking picture that could have been taken when he was a teenager. For all I knew he could have been someone entirely different, might not have lived where he said, could even have been female. I'd not thought that though, I tend to take people at face value initially.
Anyway, this guy gave me the perfect opportunity to stamp my foot yet again and storm off stage right. Only to return stage left a couple of scenes later.
So there you have it. Might mean something to some, might seem wierd to others - just me folks. Like me or lump me, I'm back.
Angel has blogged.................. thanks for reading 
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Sugar_Lee
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Apr 7 @ 8:54PM
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GenuineHarleyGirl
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Apr 7 @ 8:58PM
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Sounds to me ...you are just human... 
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wandaful123
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Apr 7 @ 9:00PM
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In short I'm a Drama Queen.
I find it therapeutic to storm out of the room slamming the door behind me. Writing a final blog and cancelling my account is the on line equivalent of that for me. 
Very Good! Whatever works, good for you I say!
In all honesty this is the first time I have ever understood why anyone has done that. So not only have you given me a new perspective but made me laugh in the process! Thanks.
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JimNastics
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Apr 7 @ 9:13PM
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Bravo Bravo = Welcome back
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LilMissGiggles
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Apr 7 @ 9:37PM
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Might mean something to some, might seem wierd to others - just me folks. Like me or lump me, I'm back.
For me I like ya and am glad ya back hun
Good on ya let the silly ones throw their toys outta the pram and ignore them hun
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piper
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Apr 7 @ 9:55PM
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lefthandedluckie
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Apr 7 @ 10:40PM
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Expressing your emotions and "ranting" is good for you and your psyche! It allows pent up "steam" to get out quickly before gaskets start to blow! Kinda on the order of a "pop-off" valve on an air compressor or from a steam boiler!
Always, a sign of good emotional security is the ability to talk about your experience and discuss it like you are doing here!
I wish you well, young lady!!
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melodygirl
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Apr 8 @ 12:08PM
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If it works for you!Go for it!
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Blondino
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Apr 8 @ 1:19PM
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I find it therapeutic to storm out of the room slamming the door behind me. Writing a final blog and cancelling my account is the on line equivalent of that for me.
hey 50% of people on this site seem to have done that at least once ... dont worry about it 
 Go out like a lion ............ come in like a lamb
get blogging you have had your moment of glory .....
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hellosue
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Apr 8 @ 2:53PM
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It's amazing to me how some people keep track of the coming and going on here - even to the hour! It's like they are stalking online. What is with that? Now it's kinda fun to quit every other day just to see the comments.  
Oh and the gossip... I am supposedly still married (even though he died 8 years ago) and cheating on my dead ex-husband. I am supposedly rude for standing up to the "prude" comments thrown my way every day for the past month. Oh, and I'm a wino because I have a glass of merlot twice a month. hmmm, I am an awful person when you get down to it.  
Welcome back Angel - don't let the clowns get to you - you can beat them at their own game - quit every damn day - ignore or block them - defend yourself however you need - dont worry about what anyone else thinks or says - be yourself because you are fine!
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imlost2
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Apr 8 @ 7:03PM
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I'm not a critic, but I think you are an excellent writer and get your point accross very well, you couldn't have expressed it better. Everyone seems to think they are perfect and have the right to judge others, I tell them to get their heads out of the sand and look around, no one is perfect. Let people be who they want to be and move on, life is too short to worry about the small stuff, great blog.
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MarkAndy
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Apr 10 @ 6:47PM
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Sorry not been in touch of late, but just to let you know I still loves the writing and am glad to see you are still bloging along.
Still loves ya (in the internet love way which some might call platonic )
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HighlandsLass
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Apr 10 @ 8:58PM
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Go if you must, in as dramatic a fashion as you desire-- return when you will, as long as you return!
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