The time has come. posted 5/20/2008 12:55:15 AM | 11 kudos what's this?     report abuse tagged: change, friends

cartay25

As I have said before I like to hide in the shadows and usually feel most comfortable there. However things have happened over the last couple of weeks that has shown me being out in the light isn't so bad (except for the sunburn from camping ). I have learned that it's not so bad to have people see me.........the real me.........in fact, I even like it a little.

I found out that not everybody sees me and treats me like my family does. There is so much of me that my family doesn't understand or appreciate. I have kept the real me hidden in the shadows from everyone, including myself. I have worked so hard to be the person that everyone expected, do what would please others and to behave a certain way so that I would fit into the mold that had been placed before me that I now realize I have made myself miserable. My therapist is going to be so proud of me.

The time has come to put myself out there.........be me and not worry about what others think. I need to be me and be happy. I need to try things that I have always wanted to try........do what I have wanted to do. The time has come for me to stop worrying about what my family thinks and whether or not they approve. It is time to be me.

A very special friend has been telling me this for months and I will make sure he knows that I have finally listened. I don't need to confront my family for the way they have treated me in the past......I just need to start living for the future and they can figure it out for themselves.

I need to give a very special Thank You to all of my camping buddies for showing me that I am someone. That I do exist as a person and can be myself and still be loved. When I was with them this weekend I was able to just be me.......so much so that I wasn't sure who I was for a while. The more they told me things that they liked about me the more happier I felt inside and even more of the real me came out. I heard more positive comments this past weekend than I had heard in my entire life. I owe so much to all of you.

So, for my first step out into the world as me I would like to share a slide show that I made last December that shows the life of my son and I. It shows the hideous hairdo's and clothes that my mother put me in for school pics, me in a dress and how I have changed thru the years. I have never shown these pics to anyone outside of the family but the time has come for the world to see me. If you don't enjoy it at........least you will get a good laugh.

Me and my boy.

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