Peeps enjoying summer.... posted 6/21/2008 9:47:59 AM | 2 kudos what's this?     report abuse tagged: summertime, freedom, joy

newpatches

I've noticed how quiet it is here...and "over there" and to me that's a good sign that people are out enjoying summertime and not sitting endlessly in front of their computers. I've been doing the same...enjoying summer days.

I wanted this to be the best summer I've had in years. Of course that would include a summer romance. On that note, it didn't take long to begin to feel let down...not a soul in my life and not one in sight either.

On top of that, I've been very concerned about me for a few months....moody, inconsistent, depressed, erratic and cross. Although I can be independent and outspoken, I'm usually a pretty easygoing, laid back, fun-lovin' gal. I wondered where she went to....

Then I got sick....another awful cold and bronchitis and I hit rock bottom. I was so tired and for weeks and weeks all I'd wanted to do was sleep. I had no ambition and I was becoming a little scared.

Then after thinking things over, I decided to make some changes that were right for me. I wrote a few letters and dismissed a few guys from my life...done...no more being used by anyone. In this mode a local "friend" showed up on my doorstep unexpectedly and got the same heave-ho...now I was feeling better...oh yes I was!

Last Saturday night, coughing myself sick, I put out my cigarette and said to myself...NO MORE. I went to bed and forgot to take my blood pressure medicine. Sunday morning I threw my last 3 cigarettes away and took my blood pressure...it was near perfect!!! I skipped my morning bp med and monitored it all day...it ran just great.

I continued watching it and refused to take my medicine and within 2 days the change in me was dramatic...no more depression and moodiness. My energy level was back to normal and I was stayin' busy and lovin' it. No more fighting sleepiness all day and evening!

I haven't had the first bit of trouble staying away from cigarettes...don't miss them...prayer works peeps! Anyway...I'm back to walking again and going to the gym and tanning. I'm back to my old jolly self that I've missed for so long. My decision to eliminate men from my life has been a good one for me...oh not all men...just those users. So how do I know a user? He won't stick around to prove himself otherwise...it's that simple.

I feel good about me...good about my life. I feel on solid ground for the first time in over 5 years. So this will be one of the best summers ever...summer romance or not. Being smoke free the air smells awesome and fresh and I can once again pick up the scent of flowers and approaching rain, a neighbor's morning coffee or bacon and a zillion other smells that were deadened by smoking. My house is clear and clean and non-toxic. The money I save on room fresheners alone will be amazing...not to mention what I save not buying cigarettes and I was smoking nearly 3 packs a day!

So I'm enjoying summer....sorta feels like summers I remember as a kid....free and easy and delightful. I see the lightening bugs have arrived and I watch my gaggle of squirrels playing and squabbling and doing their high wire acts from pole to pole. There's a certain peace in my soul now...a contentment I haven't felt for years. Although I can still speak my mind in a heartbeat, I am no longer angry about anything. For the most part, I don't feel the need to speak my mind...it's just too easy to shrug stuff off and like the saying goes....I just don't sweat the small stuff anymore.

As I look out my window and see my morning glories climbing up the fence and beginning to bloom I wish all of you summer days that vine around your life with sunshine and soft showers and the beauty of cool mornings and brilliant sunsets and filled with the playfulness of childhood days remembered.

Patches

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