I'm living in Limbo. Since the flood 3 weeks ago, I've slept in 6 different beds and my car. I can't find anyone to rent me a place short-term....even the places that rent by the week are full. I've been granted aid for temporary housing, but I will lose that Monday because there is NO temporary housing. My employers have graciously offered me their "mother in law quarters" in their house, but they don't want it to be long term so I keep my clothes in my car and only carry in what I need daily...this seems to keep them satisfied that its only a temporary situation and I'm willing to play the game in order to have a place to stay. I'm tied up in FEMA red tape, and I found out yesterday that the woman that is watching my cats can't keep them much longer. I think I'm going to need to find homes for them soon, and even the thought of that just kills me.
My daughter called me from the ER yesterday (1800 miles away) and said she had 2 slipped discs in her back. She has a toddler and needs help and hearing her cry and in pain just about did me in. I went into my supervisor and resigned...I offered a 3 week notice but she and the HR Director suggested a Leave Of Absence instead. I told them I don't know if I'll ever come back and they were fine with giving me time to make up my mind. This is not the best time for me to make long-term decisions, and I'm glad they understand that.
Today I'm going back to the place that used to be home and finish packing up what possessions I have left and putting them in storage. I get angry everytime I step foot in the house, I'm still finding things that are ruined and the house still smells so today won't be an easy day. I've said before that it was only stuff, but I'm down to the bare bones of what used to be my life, and seeing it all sitting before me is unsettling.
People have been gracious enough to ask what I need and offer me household goods, and I'm very appreciative; however right now I can't start accumulating things since I have no real place to keep them. A good portion of my clothes survived since they were hanging higher than the water level, but of course my favorite things were in the clothes hamper that was destroyed. The Red Cross provided money for shoes and clothing so missing items have been replaced.
I thought that the first day I walked into my house after the flood would be the worst. I've learned that it wasn't...almost everyday since has held some kind of new challenge. Its hard, and I'm tired.
Thanks for listening to me whine.
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sherwithme
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Jun 28 @ 9:25AM
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That totally sucks..... 
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EternalFlame
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Jun 28 @ 9:26AM
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Oh, Annie darlin I feel for you!
Go to THIS SITE and get some phone numbers...surely there is someone somewhere who could foster your kitties till you have a place to stay! When I left Michigan, I had to find somebody to foster not only my cat, but her 2-week-old litter of 8 kittens! It CAN be done...somebody can do this...and if I had more information about where you are I would call for you myself!
 If I lived closer you'd have a place to stay, and you could bring your cats too! I miss having a cat in the house....my heart is still breaking over the loss of my Patches and I can't bear to think of you or anyone else I care about losing their babies, for ANY reason
Big hugs, Annie....you're in my thoughts
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ragtopcookie
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Jun 28 @ 9:40AM
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Ive thought about what i would do in your shoes my friend....and what i would do is start over someplace else......never go back to what can happen again.....go stay with your daughter and start again.......cookie
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LaughTillYaPuke
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Jun 28 @ 9:59AM
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Oh honey...there is nothing worse than hearing your child need you and not be able to be there emmediatly. It's getting overwhelming and we are all so far away we can't help!
Please let me know if there is anything I can do! 
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Loreli
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Jun 28 @ 10:01AM
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Thinking about you, Annie....tons of people going through that in my city too. It's sad, sometimes scary......I know you're a survivor!
I agree-go be with your daughter, see if you can start over there.
And know my door is open to you anytime 
(Be safe going back in that filth...breathing the air could make you sick)
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fenderchick
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Jun 28 @ 10:10AM
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I'm so so sorry that you lost so much. I'm glad your safe though. I hope something comes through and you can have a safe home for you and your cat's. And that your daughter gets better quickly as well.On the plus side spending time with your grandchild will change your mind, you'll be too busy to think.
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oceanlover734
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Jun 28 @ 11:06AM
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All I can say is I am so sorry. You are experiencing a very real type of grief for your losses which are many. Just maybe going to your daughter and helping her will also be the best help for you til the time is right for more.
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newpatches
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Jun 28 @ 11:07AM
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You whine all you want and need to Annie...your situation has earned you that privelege. I am at a loss for words to express my compassion for what you're going through...I just cannot imagine what it's like.
I cannot imagine a situation where even temporary housing isn't available or agencies that are formed for the purpose of helping in diasters are unable to do so.
I don't know what I'd do in your circumstances so I can't even advise you. But I'm pretty sure...with the weather so crazy anymore that I probably wouldn't wanna remain where this could happen again.
I do know you'll work it all out...that's what we do and we do it a day at a time. You are in my prayers because prayers work.
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SallyF
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Jun 28 @ 11:41AM
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Going to your daughter's could be a win/win for both of you---you can decide later if it's a short term 'pause' of normalcy or a long term decision. You are lucky to have an employer that is so understanding and flexible. Tell your granddaughter to get out the grammy jammies! (hope they're lightweight) You are in my thoughts daily, L~
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misschoos
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Jun 28 @ 12:34PM
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I can't imagine how bad that is for you. I hope your daughter recovers quickly.
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CrackerJackPat
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Jun 28 @ 12:57PM
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Annie - you can whine all you want!!! Your friends here will pick up the slack and do the prayers and positive thinking for you right now. Sometimes we just can't DO IT for ourselves.
This IS a REALLY HARD time for you. Yeah, it's just "stuff," but when looking at the diminishing pile of "stuff" as your "life," it can be devistating! Kind of like the old song, "Is that all there is?"
I wish you were here g/f -- I finally got that spare room pretty much in order now -- the one we've talked about for a year.
Know that you are in my prayers.
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missliss78
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Jun 28 @ 1:40PM
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I am inclined to offer my thoughts & prayers to you as well.
I can only imagine the chaos you are going through & the pain in the rear that all of this is causing you in every aspect of your life. I am so sorry & just wish there was something I could do to help you.
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wandaful123
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Jun 29 @ 12:17AM
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One day at a time my friend... try not to let yourself become overwhelmed... it is tough at times... but, yeah, I said but, you are tougher... and softer... and sweeter... and, and, sooo much more.... much. much love and hugs. I wish there was something I could do...
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