Here is sit in my late step fathers bedroom. I only arrived about 2 hours ago. Flew from Indiana to Az this morning. You see my step dad died about six weeks ago. And 2 weeks ago my 83 yr old Mother found out she has liver cancer that has matastizied to her lung. Not good. I havent seen my mother in 3 yrs. She always was a small lady....but now she is so frail. She always had a ton of energy...walks 2 miles a day. Last 2 days she hasnt had the energy. Infact she is napping now.
You see my Mother and I have only recently re-connected after years of stubborness and pride on both of our parts. The connection took place a few months before the cancer verdict for which I am thankful for that. And now Im here to see what I can do to make her life more comfortable. I also want to pick her brain....memories of hers you know. I dont think I can cram the last 35yrs we have been distant into one week. (Wish I could tho) I just want her to know how much I love her. When the time comes for her passing I want her to know the comfort of a daughters love.
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missliss78
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Sep 13 @ 5:24PM
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 Annie, big warm hugs to you, lady.
Though I know it's all rather bittersweet, I hope you are able to take away some good memories to last you a life time. 
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oceanlover734
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Sep 13 @ 5:47PM
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A very heartfelt blog here. Tears are flowing just because of being able to identify. Enjoy this time. ~*~
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roscoe1955
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Sep 13 @ 6:11PM
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you need to enjoy what time is left forget all the problems the whys and the whys not its time to be with each other now and rekindle your relationship, you will forgive each other but you will never catch what has already gone ,sorry but cheeer up and enjoy your new relationship 
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Knitengale99
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Sep 13 @ 7:05PM
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I'm so glad you reconnected before it was too late. hugggggggggs
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one_dimple
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Sep 13 @ 7:28PM
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wolfmist
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Sep 13 @ 8:51PM
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You're very lucky to have this time with her.
My dad had been sick for a long time and I went and lived at home for a year and had a great year with him. His health was improving and I moved to Florida.. which was over a thousand miles away.
I spoke to him on Monday night, told him all about buying my first car. He told me he was proud of me and I told him I loved him and he told me he loved me too.
Wednesday of that week on June 14 he dropped dead at a business conference.
I have always treasured that memory of our last conversation.
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Tiramisu4u
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Sep 13 @ 9:10PM
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Bless you Annie, for having the heart and soul to let bygones go poof...This was probably the best thing you will have ever done for yourself.
And, may I suggest...bring a tape recorder as you two talk...years from now you will be able to listen to mom...
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matisse731
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Sep 13 @ 9:47PM
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I so envy you,(in a good way) for getting this chance.
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1frantastic
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Sep 13 @ 10:16PM
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I just returned from California from being with my 96 yr old mama, with whom I made peace. I was summoned on 4-12 to come to her critically ill bedside.I stayed 24/7 in same room with her...making sure diapers were changed and swallow problem addressed so she woulodn't choke....
She did improve to the point she told me to go on back to Texas...I had nowhere to be of my own...I met someone out there and my sis and daughter attended to their own "lives" and thought I should only spend time with mama...but my mama told me to go have fun also...I did..I left after 4 mo to come back to a house without electricity among other problems...but have mama's blessing...She has stage 3 kidney failure now and how long is unknown....but we did make peace...so I can have good memories instead of all my resentment I harbored so long before now....I understand where you are coming from...and remember the good talks...always.....
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kywonder
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Sep 14 @ 10:17AM
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Beautiful. Just beautiful. Treasure those memories for all they are worth. For they will eventually outweigh and tip the scales in your favor. Thank you for your wonderful experience.
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Annie544
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Sep 14 @ 11:56AM
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I want to thank you all for your kind and inspiring words. What I have found in the last 24hrs is that Mom is still Mom. Thinking I could get her to open up the flood gates was a dream. But, Mom is Mom and I still love her. I know in her own way she knows this visit is a time for healing our relationship. She is still an unemotional person....but I have seen some glimmer....some crack there that she too understands the importance of us being together.
Again, thank you all for your kindness.
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