I'm tired of: Holding onto the last parts of Jason that I don't like and don't want to hold onto anymore.! I'm improving but I'd like to be able to get him and his abuse and any other emotion associated with him out of my head.!
I am listening to: Nothing much right now.! Just Me and Phillip typing on the keyboards and the tv in the background.
Maybe I should: Worry less about what Jason did to me before and concentrate and focus on the now and the present where I have a good man and a good relationship that I wouldn't hurt for the world.! Wonderful would also describe that as well.! :D
I Wish: There are lots of things I could wish for.! Alot of them I have, and alot of other things I'm working on.!
Chocolate: It's alright. But I'm not an addict of it that's for sure.! Lol. :)
I have lost respect for: My answer is basically similar to the response of the person that did this before me.! And I've also lost respect for anyone who cheats on their significant others.! If You Love Them And Respect Them Then You Won't Cheat! Simple as that!
I want: My relationship with the love of my life to stay the way it is now for the rest of our lives! :) I've never felt so Equal and Cared about and Loved in any other relationship by anyone else as I do him! :) I Love You Baby!
I last ate: A Cherry Turnover.
The meaning of my display name is: Anything that interests me and means anything to me.! :) Lol.
Right now I'm craving: Anything from my man.! :D
Love is: Unconditional and accepting of the flaws that your significant other has.! And being there for them consistently.!
Today: Is the day that I didn't do alot of.! I watched tv and had a few cigarettes and used the computer.! Then sometime after that I got dressed and ready to go with Phillip to Teresa's for supper and so we could spend some time with Frances for her birthday.! And then we went to Darts.! Then we came home and did alot of the usual. Which consisted of us using the computer and after that watching a movie out in the livingroom and also having a nice and rather meaningful conversation.!
Tomorrow: Not sure yet.!
QUESTIONS:
Is your hair wet? Nope.
Is your cell phone right by you? No. Actually the cell phone that was originally mine is at Hollie's. And I also have the cell phone that Phillip gave to me. But it's not active yet.
do you miss someone? Yeah I miss alot of people.!
are you wearing Chap Stick? Nope.
Are you tired? Getting there.
Are you wearing pajamas? Not right now.! I haven't changed out of my clothes yet.!
Are you mad? No.
Are you upset? No.
HAVE YOU EVER:
Dated someone twice: Yes I have. I've dated Phillip twice. Both the first time that we were together a few years ago, and also this second time as well.! :D Lol.!
Been overseas? Nope.
Lost someone close? Yep.
Three favorite colors: Black. Light Blue. I'm kind of stuck for the third one though.! I like purple but I also like other colors as well.!
THIS MONTH HAVE YOU:
Made a new friend? Mmm...well...sort of and sort of not. It depends on how I've made the friend.! I have friends in the Dart League and I have Joanne as a friend and also the my OD friends.!
Fallen out of love?: Nope.! :)
Laughed until you almost cried?: Well...I wouldn't say that I almost cried but I did laugh pretty hard enough to make my eyes water and somewhat fill with tears.! And that's happened a few times recently.!
Met someone who changed your life?: Yep. Phillip.! :) (And also Myself since I was the one to make the serious decision to change my life for the better.!)
Is there something you want to tell someone?: Mmm...yeah, you could say that.! Just to get it all out in the open.! About one or two things.!
You're really upset; who is the first person you go to?: Well either Phillip or Mom or Amanda or Hollie and maybe Ash or someone.!
Does it matter to you if your boyfriend/girlfriend smokes?: No. Because I also smoke myself.!
Can you do the splits?: No. Not really. I tried it before and failed.! Lol.
Last person you texted? I didn't.
Have you been to New York City? No. But I hear it's pretty interesting though.!
Who is the last person you added to your contacts list in your phone? I didn't.
Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? I think it might've been either Phillip or Mom.
Do you think you've made a difference in anyone's life? Yeah. I think I've made a difference in Phillip's.! :)
Have you ever tattooed anyone's name on you? No.
How many piercings do you have? None. I had my ears pierced before and although the holes are still there but grown over that's the only thing that I'd had pierced.
Which year has been the best so far? Well...to answer this one, for starters,...when I was 25 my life changed for the better.! And then when I got back together with Phillip and also when I created and stuck with this diary.! Just alot of things that can't exactly be summed up in a particular year.!
Last time you laughed really hard? Oh geeze...there were alot of instances like that lately so it's hard to pick just one.
When is your next road trip? None planned.
Do you know anyone addicted to anything? Yeah, I'm addicted to Phillip and Open Diary! Lol.! :)
Tonight was alright.! Phillip and Brian picked me up here and then we went to Teresa's where Frances is staying with Jeffery until Teresa comes back from Her trip to Toronto.! So when we got there Joanne was there and Jeffery was in the livingroom. Frances went to the Bus Stop to meet Donny. As he was as usual coming from The Village Mall, what else is new?! And then they came back and Donny sat down to have his supper of some kind of stew or soup that Frances made. And also buns as well. And so Frances also sat down as well. And she smoked her cigarette. And then shortly after that we had cake. Some of Frances's birthday cake.
Then Phillip and Me went into the livingroom where he rolled cigarettes for me and we watched tv. And, we made a joke about Donny being on a split shift from having went there on a break from The Village Mall.! Because he's there so damn much.! We call The Village Mall his mistress on the side and the one he's cheating on Joanne with.! Lol.! It's just nuts how much time he spends at The Village Mall compared to how much time he spends with her.! I wouldn't be putting up with it that's for sure.!
Anyway...
When we picked up Debbie last night she said that she didn't know if she was coming or going.! And that she didn't know if she was in or out of this world.! Due to the stress that she recently went through with losing her Mother to death.! And so when Joanne went to say something to her Mother Debbie spoke up and said for her to never say a cross word to her Mother again because you'll never know when she'll be gone and she'll be sorry and regret it when shes gone.! Debbie seemed really sensitive about that last night.! And she was pret
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