This past week... posted 10/8/2008 2:00:21 AM | 5 kudos what's this?     report abuse

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This past week has been absolutely nutty for me. There seems to have been quite of bit upheaval. I've discovered MD during this time, there was a slight car issue which is still being resolved, I talked to my momma just prior to the car issue which I actually hadn't done in quite some time...yes, I know, absolutely rotten of me.

This was an eye-openener, it showed me actually how absolutely scanty my own support network is. That's a bit of a frightening thought when I'm considering that I'm trying to make a home here. Of course, the obvious question then becomes...what on earth for?! My immediate family is also going through a transition time, after their recent move from NC and it's difficult as I'm not able to support them in the way they require either.

I think this blog has just boiled down to that I'm really missing my family. I'm incredibly proud of them. Daddy is teaching at his alma mater, where he and Momma were seminary students after they just got married...Literally. They had a weekend honeymoon, and off they went to school on Monday. She recently became the minister of a church in Atlanta, a mission-based church that is reminiscent of the congregation I grew up in. They had a LOT of work to do on the house as they got socked in the housing market, just to make their home liveable for my...oh my gosh, she's 13 now?! year old sister.

Momma sent me a little care package in the mail, complete with $10 to "buy a little something for myself." I giggled. Little did I know, that those $10 would see me through a week while I tried to reorganize my life after the car/purse fiasco. In that same package was a tape of one of my camp counselors that was professionally done. I'm embarressed to say, I never even listened to it, and yet always kept it. Sonia, if you're reading this, I humbly apologize, and as soon as I find a tape deck, I'll pop it in!

Included in that package, was a picture of my 18 month younger sister with her fiance. On the back was a note Momma attached saying that he just recently called it off due to issues my sister's inability to cope with her own disability. Oh cruddy...I was really looking forward to being a bridesmaid for this one. She's had so much to deal with and honestly, the only thing she has EVER wanted to be was to be a wife and mother. Anytime she's asked, that was her response. She's the one who actually took care of her dolls, mine always received horrible haircuts, if I bothered playing with them at all.

Now through all this, the support I got during this time is incredible...I called on a friend, and he stood by me, to make me laugh and to play taxi-cab. However, with those kinds of calls, there also always seem to be strings, some I discovered later, others I knew were there, and yet had I to do what I had to do. What a shitty decision to have to make. With family, at least my own, those strings never seem to be there, other than to make the most of what I got.

Isn't it funny how at times of crisis, one realizes how important your family actually is? I'm thankful that my own is truly one of the most functional families I've know, and that is due to the foundation my parents have set. I'm sorry it took this, I'm glad it occurred, if only to give me a jolt.

LOL I've never written a blog before, and I started it with a decision unmade..I think I just made it.

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