I'm having an unusual anxiety episode. Was awake stressing about personal stuff until I basically gave myself a good stern talking-to about how I was being uselessly self-indulgent and needed to put it to rest. That worked and I was starting to drift off when I started having weird thoughts; the mob mistaking me for someone else and breaking in to kill me and the girls (wtf, I don't even watch TV).
Then stuff from horror movies -- not the traditionally scary parts so much as angsty emotional dread; remembering a story about a couple who had to kill their kids and themselves rather than let zombies eat them; me having a heart attack during the night and becoming a zombie myself and going after the girls. Scenes from one movie, not even the "scary" part, but a flashback where the a character loses her husband and daughter in a car accident.
Yeah, I see the common theme here... but this isn't something I normally sit up being anxious about. Sitting up obsessively reading blogs and programming, yes. Just lying in bed unable to sleep because of dreadful visions, no. I'm not going to get sleep, I should at least be doing something vaguely interesting, enjoyable or productive -- this, on the other hand, just sucks.
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chevymn
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Oct 20 @ 1:57AM
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Welllllll. I'm no professional, but I think you could use a good trip to the shrink.....It's just a thought...... Nothin' personal..... I could probably recommend a few...... .
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Monsterboy
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Oct 20 @ 7:24AM
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Well, if it were a pattern as opposed to one strange night, I'd probably agree with you. Of course, for simple anxiety with no other physical symptoms, a simple therapist would probably suffice.
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jentoblues101
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Oct 20 @ 9:24AM
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Research anxiety and cognitive behavioral therapy and see if there's something there that might help in case it ever happens again.
Also, working to replace disturbing images with pleasant ones might help. Finally, if all else fails, read a really good, engaging book!
I had the exact same thing happen when Toby was an infant; it was torturous! I worked myself into a terrible state and cried all night long. I hope this was a one-time deal for you; I can't imagine having that happen again to me.
Best to you,
Jen
(PS--I think you're fine, Sean; you probably don't need a therapist--you're entirely capable of dealing with life on life's terms.)
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tinamarie10
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Oct 20 @ 9:38AM
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Anxiety is a scary thing...don't be afraid to see a professional...I have been tossing and turning about the economy...money...my son...lack of family...my stomache aches and I sometimes feel like cannot get out of bed...so do not feel alone...and I for one...will take a sedative when this immobalizes me...good luck and you are not crazy...life can suck sometimes 
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jayej
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Oct 20 @ 9:42AM
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Filter your water, including what you cook with, the amount of perscription drugs in most water systems today can cause anxiety...heightened fears.....side effects to some of the antidepressents perscribed these days, if you don't need them.
People thing I am nuts when I say that, but I can't even drink the iced tea at Dennys anymore because I can taste that they use city water to make it.
I know weird..... but considering you dreams....*smile*
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ttomtarr
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Oct 20 @ 10:03AM
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Were you chatting on a cell phone for more than a half hour, just before going to bed? That can cause some major sleep disturbances. Yes, that 's right. Check it out on the net. Diet and sugar metabolism can cause problems too
Also, the brain is like any other container. If you put garbage into it, it will be full of garbage. Give your axe a new home, like in the center of the TV set. You are reacting to the images it has presented to you, and you have stored, If you have no axe, a brick will do. You get the picture, yes? Is zombies eating people really good healthy entertainment? Some blogs of fear and hatred are not much different,
You have a store of unreal images, ever more wierd, written to titilate an ever more jaded TV audience. You are suffering from this now, the girls are still loading their little minds with TV trash images and concepts, and will suffer later.
Sit the girls on your lap, and tell them real bed time stories, that they will happily remember, along with Dad taking the time to do it. Time with those kids is your best cure. Tell them some old family stories and family history that will teach them who they are, and remind you too. I suspect it will be better medicine for your problems than anything a shrink will give you.
Good Luck.
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sweetxy
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Oct 20 @ 11:21AM
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It has the cause ,only you will know it.
I had trouble before but if only my eyes not a big problem I count 1-100 and never get to hundred
Long time ago listening to soft music could put me to sleep.
right now I more relax and understand things around me much more than long tiem go so if i don't want to take it I'm free from it..let my mind relax ..never wqnted to hurt myself mental because if we keep being in that it will be with you permanently then it will be very hard to solve ,medication can make it worse if taking for long term
So its;s' you..you only can manage it
most of time get to the pillow the pillow kiss me I can sleep in a few minutes..
During the day my thought goes everywhere everyday but when the day is done I'm done with it..
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Monsterboy
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Oct 20 @ 6:55PM
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Thanks Jen. Already have a therapist, already doing CBT (not for this, though. Like i said, this is not a normal Sean thing).
No cell phone. And I've been a zombie fan for years, it's never bothered me before. And like I said, it wasn't the usual zombie things that bugged me. Something about the idea of something happening to my kids. Which I don't normally sit around angsting about. Not sure where it came from.
(Though now that I think of it, I really should teach them what to do about zombies. Just in case.)
I was on antidepressants a few months back -- Wellbutrin, mostly for my focus problems (surprise, Mr. INFP has focus problems!). I got off that when I began to suspect it was raising my blood pressure -- and found no negative effect on my mood or focus. Go figure.
Weird thing is, I did sit up with the girls. They went to bed a little past their bedtime, but nothing extreme -- and I went way ahead of schedule before waking up. Eve curled up on my chest, Grace about 4 feet away. Nothing happened all day that should have got me upset.
Hmm. Wonder if it could be caffeine. I just came off a detox diet, no caffeine, no alcohol, and last night I had a large coffee...
Well, if so it could be worse. Thank God it's not the alcohol...
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sybnann
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Oct 21 @ 12:47AM
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You may also consider not watching TV or getting on the computer for at least a half hour before bed. It has been proven that if you do, your brain thinks its time to awaken because of all the light. Just a tip that I hope helps you.
Take care 
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