| Mar 18, 2007 @ 8:15 PM |
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ajkron83
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There are some things that you can not control. But why is it that I feel this way all of the time? There is a longing in my heart that wont go away. The want to belong. To be one. But it seems whenever I get close something happens its like I can see it but its just far enough away that I cant reach it. I open myself up and break myself down. I live and then I die. I just want that feeling and I want to know I can get it in return. At some point its got to turn around. But when? How long do I have to wait? How long do I have to feel this way? Is it something I did, or didnt do? Is this a punishment? I just want to feel loved. That's not to much to ask for. What are my needs? A mystery even to myself. Is it something I've never gotten? Something I dont know? Is it something from the heavens or can I find it here on earth? Its easy to think of, but hard to explain. Its easy to want but so hard to feel. Love... Thats the one word I can think of. Love, the one thing I long for, for all of my days. How do I find it. What do I do? Better yet, how will I know when I find it? Ive heard you'll know. But I cant even imagine a feeling more intense than the feelings I've felt for a few. And then there are the ones that I wanted so bad only to find out the cause is dead. Am I the only one to feel this way or are there others. Is this a normal feeling? Something people just deal with? If so, how? How do you do it? What makes it easier? Im lonely, hollow, so alone. Are you out there? Will we meet? Will it be soon? I dont even know you but already...I Love You!
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| Apr 24, 2007 @ 12:22 AM |
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sweetsunshine36
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I hear your pain. Believe me i do. I understand what you are going through, and i won't say, it will get better because i can't say that for sure. I have been through more years of heartbreak than you, and it doesn't get any easier as you mature. All i can say is hold up your chin and keep livin'. Maybe one day you will be numbered in the lucky few.  . Just take things one day at a time. One moment at a time.
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| May 1, 2007 @ 11:53 AM |
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kms4702
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You only think you have had feelings more intense than the feelings you've felt for a few. You're going to know it because when it's real it's going to knock your socks off!
Share your strengths out loud. Share your weakness in private with her when you can't find your socks.
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| May 2, 2007 @ 10:19 PM |
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lazareth
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AJ, I met my husband in Yahoo chat (gardening room cause I like gardening). I wasn't even looking for a relationship. He started it with one little word.... "hi" .
We started talking over the internet for a few months ( I wasn't sure where it was going ) Then started talking on the phone. The real kicker was I'm from North Carolina, He's in Iowa. But I took a chance after talking for almost 16 months , flew up here to visit , next thing I new I was selling my house, packing what could fit in a Blazer and a small trailer, loaded up my critters and here I am.
Bottom line is, love will find you when you least expect it, the harder you look the more elusive it is.
You are still young, enjoy it, don't get in a rush. Things happen when they are supposed to and everything happens for a reason 
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| Oct 21 @ 11:52 AM |
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BBWDinx
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The thing about love is that you can't see it until it's actually in front of you. One minute it's unreachable, then the next, it envelopes you. It doesn't sneak up or slowly appear. You can't see it coming. It's not there at all until it's there. Have faith that your longing will bring it to you.
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